karate and bulling

I started to learn karate-do when I was 8 years old, and the reason was because I was bullied in the school. I was a fat, smart and kind boy with a rare accent, with no self-stem at all. One afternoon, my father noticed the brushes and signals of a fight, and he asked me what was wrong... he was always travelling, so, I didn't have a close relationship with him. I couldn't tell anything in that moment, but I think that he realized I was in problems with others kids.

The next morning, a Saturday, he told me that he would like to show me something special, a man, a sport Asian man. We were to an old gim, not like a boxing gim, but with the same environment. A group of men dressed in white pyjamas were doing some class of fight, not Greek, some different, more complex. It was the first time I saw a class of Judo. I never forgot those white, rude suits and the black belts.

I knew in that moment, that my like will change for ever.

The Quest

In my quest for a new job, I am doing many things, reading many tips, books, and all possible positive material you can imagine, included listen hypnosis record. I am looking for a signal, u'now, some class of dream, or subconscious idea. Some brilliant image. Anything that show me the path to follow.

I never thought that find a new job could be so difficult, after all, I am quite well prepared, I speak almost 2 languages and I have an amazing worldwide experience. However, the right job just eluded me, one and other time. Every time, I am more close to my true.

Nothing happen yet, however I am close, too damn close.

sometimes, something good happend

Well, as I mentioned in my last post, I was been looking for a new job for months, now, for my entire surprise, I have two possibilities in the same company, how weird is that?, scare to the bones in the beginning, I am thinking now that I duplicate my popularity in only one day.

Find a job is not about skills, it is about confidence. Everybody knows that not the best candidate get the role... believe me, I was there, in all the possibles encounters. OK, you need the skills, meet the requirements and qualifications, but in the end, it's just about be yourself. Believe in you.

Jobs Interviews

I had two job interviews today, one by phone and the other one face-to-face. I have been looking for a new job for months, but the market still (confuse). Sometimes I lost confidence in my (communications) skills, others the guy is a complete jerk. I was a lot more assertive years ago, when I was an irresolute young man, ignorant of my good luck. Now, I know that the opportunities in the life don't came everyday, however, there is always a possibility.

I used to be very good in the interview process, like these psychometric test about your intelligent where I just know the right answers. But now it's like a lottery, you never know. When you left the meeting room with a smile, thinking that you got it, you fail, and when you left full of doubts, you got the job.

To be honest, I need a job, this city could be an awful place without money, and I have a lot to lose. I must get a new job soon.

First: English is not my mother language

1#FIRST:

Well, I start this linguistic experiment today with my first statement: the Shakespeare's language is not my mother language, so, in that way, nobody really will expect that I write appropriately. This blog and my posts will be full of mistakes, misunderstandings and bad English.

I don't care anymore if the sentence is good, bad or ugly.

The idea is simply to write.

Write about anything, in any way, just let that my subconscious mind type the words I pretend to say. There is a reason for that, for many years I was been tried to write in this language with fluidity, always stopped for misspelling, dictionaries and principally, the felling to do it very bad. So, the language is not coming to me in the natural way.

When you are a child, and you start to learn how to write, the process is terrible slow in the beginning, but in the end, the words came to live in a mysterious way.

I hope that happend to me in some moment in this process.

Here, now, this blog is my test and my witness.